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    Bennett’s Love Shack: BEFORE TOUR


    Bennett’s love shack

    The story of our new home is a long and crazy one but I am going to try and simplify it for all of you! We owned a home after we were first married in 2006 and like many of you lost it when the economy crashed. The years that followed were long and hard at times, but full of lots of growth and learning. We made a lot of naïve mistakes with buying our first home and we were not sure how long it would be until we owned a home of our own again. In a matter of a year we moved six times!!! To California and back and then from house to house until we found the perfect rental we were living in before this house. We lives in that rental for five years and I loved it. I was happy to not be moving around any more and to have landlords that aloud me to make it feel like my own. Of course there were times that I wished I could change out flooring or shiplap walls, but knew they would not be happy with me doing that! Ha nor would my husband put that kind of time or money into a rental. So we got the itch. The itch to own our own home again. To build something we could raise our now three kids in. So we started looking. We searched all over Gilbert because we LOVE Gilbert and then in a whim my husband found a house in a dream location and neighborhood right between Gilbert and Mesa (not the house we end up with) We assumed it would be too expensive but we’re surprised to find it was a short sale and the price was doable. We made an offer and waited 6 WEEKS to hear back from them only to find out they wanted 30,000 more then they had it listed for!!!! We were devastated. I was sure this is where we were supposed to raise our babies and grow our family! What now? It was summer and the need to find a home before school started again was causing me serious anxiety and yet I was scarred to find another home we loved and not get it. Buying a house is so much harder then I remember and then people let on. I kept searching Zillow and my dad’s MLS everyday and found this little home right by where my husband and I grew up and met each other. In Mesa, MESA! There was no way we could leave our fave Gilbert with all of its shiny new targets and Wal marts and green fields and silos right? As I prayed about this a voice or feeling came to my mind and spoke to my heart telling me, this was what we needed. We need to be by “our people” close to our families and friends and the people we love most in the world. With this heart pull and the possibility of getting a good deal (my husbands priority) we put in an offer. It was accepted the next day and then we panicked a little haha! This was a fixer upper! 70% of the house was some various shade of pink and the flooring looked like a tile store AND the kitchen was a little cave off of the back of the house where you could see none of the rest of the house!
    So while sitting at our best friends house (who live in the same neighborhood as the love shack) we drew up some very Amateur plans for the new lay out and we got excited! Really, really excited! This home gives us the big back yard and an extra bedroom that we so desperately needed. It wasn’t perfect like the first house but it was going to be perfect for us. The first faze of renovations were hard on me, which surprised me.
    I am chalking it up to a learning experience but turns out I will NEVER live in my own reno ever again with two babies and a seven year old;) ha! We are already so happy here and I can’t wait to share all of our projects with you all! I am listing my home colors below!

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    Master bedroom details so far and my current mental state


    I think I have reached my limit of sanity and change. I can not believe how deeply my comfort level is attached to having a safe and beautiful home. If moving has taught me anything, it is that I COULD NEVER BE A GYPSY! Ha but seriously, tiny homes that travel around the world, will be something I watch other people do. Not for me folks! I need a spot. One spot where I lay my head every night, and one spot I call home for a very very long time. When we started this house hunting and moving process I spent so much time worrying about how my kids would handle all this change, and how I would make them feel safe. They have struggled, more tantrums, less sleep and a few articulated words of sadness for old schools and old friends, but for the most part they are doing better then I expected. I on the other hand am ruined! Granted getting our house all closed was WAY HARDER then we expected and there was tons of “grown up” stresses that made even my husband start to lose it. Still compared to me he seemed like Buddha. Now our house is all closed and done. All the papers are signed and the keys are in hand, so I should feel relieved right? Well now it is time to knock down the walls and paint all the things!!! Can I handle this guys? I know these are such first world problems but between terrible twos coming into my life like a tornado, a seven year old going on seventeen, a teething baby, walls to knock down and floors to lay I am feeling STRESSED like never before. I have found myself praying for more patients and more capacity to grow. All I want is a home to raise our family in, a place that is ours where we can teach our kids about hard work and kindness. Renting always had me feeling like we we’re waiting for something and now we are finally here, building something. So like anything in life that causes stress and discomfort, this will be worth it. So worth it. We fought hard for this and worked hard for this. We have been blessed with such good family to help us get here, and I am going to try and stop stressing now and enjoy this home and life building journey.


    Here are a few details from my master bedroom thus far. I want everything in this new home to be something I love, if I don’t love it then it has to go. Even if that means living with less right now.
    This is the headboard of my dreams. I was so nervous to sell my old bed and try something new but when I found this tufted, linen dream boat all my nerves were calmed. I found it at
    I am still on the hunt for perfect fabric to make some amazing pillows so in the meantime I am using these inexpensive IKEA white euro sham covers, mixed with some of my old favorites from homegoods and target. My duvet cover is target and and my sheets are from

    The couch side of my room is a dream come true!
    If you have followed along I bought that couch months ago in anticipation of a new house and had shuffled it through my old house to all kinds of places where it didn’t work! Ha ha so once I moved in and was able to have it in the perfect space my heart could have exploded! I threw some finders keepers throw pillows on there and some homegoods pillows. What really made it amazing was my “be still, my soul” print from classy clutter shop
    Can’t wait to find fabrics I love that I can share with you all in my etsy shop soon! Thanks for reading and following along with our very own fixer upper!

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    Girl Friends

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    I have been wanting to write about this topic for so long because it is something that I literally and physically couldn’t live with out!

    I am probably not the most low maintenance friend that there ever was..I need lots of love and attention! Haha in order to not overwhelm any one person to the point of giving up on me, I choose to have a good group of girl friends around me to balance out my potential for neediness! In fact my longest bestie Brittney Gurr, used to swim away from me at our 10 year old play dates just to dive me crazy! I would cry and tell her mom she was not being nice to me and her mom would nicely try to explain to me that some times Brittney just needed her space. What? Space? I could just not grasp this concept. Ha I was a stage four clinger. I just get such a rush of endorphins when I am around my people! I love my friends. Hence my over use of exclamation points through out this post. My “high school friends” as I lovingly refer to the five, now women, who had every part in making me the person I am today are more important to me then I will ever be able to put into words. Still, I am going to try. High school can be rough, as you all know but mine was truly THE BEST! These girls and I had what I believe to be a rare and beautiful high school experience, full of weekend dance parties and eating ALL THE NACHOS! There are videos to prove it, although if Britt know what’s best for her those will stay dead and buried. Haha. We saw each other through some real life things too, parents getting divorced, eating disorders, crazy moms, heartbreak and all of the other growing pains that can happen between 15-18 years old. We trusted each other with our secrets and our demons. We helped each other and we prayed for and with each other. I can honestly not imagine my life with out them and even though some of us have moved away and between us we have 15 1/2 kids and six husbands, we still make time for an annual girls trip to just be with each other and laugh and cry and see knew things the world has to offer. Ok now I am balling. I just honestly love these girls so much, I would die with out them. If you are reading this and you are young, in high school or college, I beg you to find good girl friends and keep them close. They will be one of the best blessings in your life and I promise you it is hard to be the best version of yourself with out them.

    You think that would be enough right? Well I just can’t get enough and as I started having babies and moving away from the daily interactions with these girls, me being the needy person I am found some one else to annoy in the daily. This person is 13 years older then me and I moved into her ward as a new mom with one baby and no idea what real life was like yet. She had four kids and lots of life experience and I clung to her like a leech! Ha soaking up all of her advice and knowledge and also making each other laugh everything we were together until we peed. I had no idea at the time the turns her life would take or mine but our friendship has remained as rock solid as ever. Heavenly Father places us in each other’s lives at just the right time and it saved me lots of money I would have spent on therapy;)! My Angela taught me all about working hard and being he best wife and mom I could be. I love her and need her always.

    Still not enough??? Guys I explained..I am apparently very NEEDY! Haha or I just really love people. Somehow I was lucky enough to reconnect with my Savannah (we were elementary besties before her family moved away from me) as moms and grow our friendship once again! You know her because she is half of the very talented Classy Clutter girls. This girl was also put into my life by divine intervention just when I needed her. She has been by my side through all of my infertility ups and downs and still loves me. She is the calm to my crazy and literally can talk me into anything! If you didn’t see my Instagram’s, home girl got me to go on tower of terror TWICE something my high school besties and husband have never been able to convince me to do! Haha she constantly teaches me through her example, how to be a better person. We can vent about wanting to run away from our kids and life one minute and then make plans for how we are going to be more patient and loving wives and moms the next minute. She also came with a whole group of friends that love her as much as I do to share with me. These girls I consider my “mom friends” and you can often find us sneaking out of our houses at midnight and meeting at Applebee’s to sing karaoke and eat mozzarella sticks, because we all know the importance of balance and a good BREAK! We randomly escape to Disneyland on a whim and you can always count on them to not judge your diet soda addiction because they have the same one. They are so important to me and I remember countless times crying together about my infertility and when I got pregnant and told them all, they felt my joy and I need them.

    Life is hard, whether you are 15 or 95 I believe good girlfriends are invaluable. I couldn’t be as good of a wife and a mom or just me for that matter with out them. Women need women. We need someone who feels the roller coaster of emotion we feel on a daily basis, to relate to us. They get me and I get them. I love to make my friends laugh and give them unsolicited advice. I hope you all have good girl friends in your life and I hope like me you have a husband who also knows the importance of good girl friends and encourages me to nurture these relationships. Happy National girl friends day! Now go call those chicks and tell them you LOVE THEM!

    High school besties

    Brittney Gurr

    Chelsea Stock

    Jessica Reyna

    Katie Weight

    Tiffany Alger

    Angela Walker

    Mom besties

    Savannah Kokaliares

    Mallory Nicklous

    Scarlett Bendixon

    Lauren Pew

    Lauren Willis

    Krystal Payne

    Jenny Steiner

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    My favorite Grays

    Ok let’s talk about the anxiety that can come from trying to pick the right shade of gray for your WHOLE house, it is too blue? Is it too green? Heavens forbid if it looks PURPLE! I can not have a purple house people! Lucky for you over the years I have found my top three shades of gray, that ensure you an not go wrong.


    First is the more trendy, and what I am going for, white gray. If you want clean and simple but not a sterile, hospital white, then this is the color for you. Glidden’s silver birch. I used this color in my daughters room to freshen it up and cover her old gold stripes. I love how bright and clean it looks with all of her warm and distressed furniture. This would be perfect through out an entire house because it will work with any other colors or tones you are interested in.

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    Second is a little bit of a darker, medium toned gray from behr called, dolphin fin. This is the color I chose to put through out my family room. This room was a milk chocolate brown before and I HATED IT! Choosing this color completely transformed a dark dingy space into a modern bright family room. Our landlord liked it so much that we are currently painting our entire rental that color, to over up all my projects and nail holes🙈.


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    Third and final recommendation is a little bit of a darker more beigey gray from behr called Stonewashed. I have this color in my master bedroom. It the perfect neutral. It fades into the background while still adding warmth and color to a space. So many of you have asked for this color, so I hope it helps! One last thing, when you first roll your new fave gray color over those old tan walls, know that it may look purple or blue to you compared to that color. Do not panic, let it dry and finish the whole wall and you will have no purple or blue tones at all. Gray is just a “cool” color but these three choices I guarantee are not blue or purple, so paint with confidence my friends!

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    Me, Just Me.

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    K so it is time to tell you all about my philosophy on life, ready? Jk it is not that serious and I definitely didn’t invent this but life really is all about balance. I believe every mom has three “me’s” inside of her, me the mom, me the wife and me JUST ME. I want to talk about the last one, the ME, you were before you found the husband or had all the babies. The person you were born and the person you have grown into through out your life. Do you remember her? Did you lose her? Is she still even in there?

    As a mom and a wife, we give up lots of things that we used to love to do, for our babies and husbands, but what about US!!?? Someday our babies will grow up and leave and we will be left with more time to ourselves. Or you might find yourself divorced for a number of different reasons and you will be there, JUST YOU. What do we do then? Did we give them too much and now there is nothing left? I really really hope not. I feel like we were raised by a generation of women who never grasped this concept of “taking care of themselves”. So how do we know how to do it if we never saw it? I don’t know about you but I want my daughter to grow up knowing she has value all by herself. She doesn’t need kids or a husband to be a whole and happy person. I want her to take care of her self and love herself! So why wouldn’t I want the same for myself, and isn’t it up to me to show her how to do that? YES, yes it is!

    I honestly believe it is so important to find worth in your self as just yourself. It is important to do the things you love to do just for you.

    I grew up with a mom that moved to America from England all by herself at the age of 19. She left all of her family in England, everyone of them, to come here and visit my dad (who she met when he served a mission in her town). How brave is that? They got married fairly quickly and started having all of us kids. My mom loved being a mom. She was good at it, maybe too good at it. She gave us all she had and I watched her sacrifice her wants until I am not even sure she knew what she wanted anymore. She didn’t have any close girl friends that she took trips with and us kids would call and complain every time she went away with my dad, to the point of her usually coming home early to make us happy. I remember getting to travel back to England with her when I was about 20 and she (bless her heart) was useless at what to do, or where to go. She had depended on my dad for the last 21 years to do all of that “stuff” for her. What happened to that girl that saved every last penny to come here from England alone? Now do not get me wrong, my mom did the absolute best she could with what she knew, but she lost her self. That independent brave young girl was basically gone. I have watched her struggle trying to find her self again over the last 10 years and it has inspired me to be better and to learn from her.

    I don’t want to lose that part of myself. That part that at 21 years old got on a plane all alone and flew to Ecuador, where I spoke no Spanish, and found my way to my driver who took me to my OSSO group in a city miles away. That girl was brave and independent and cool. I want to be her always. So how do I make sure I don’t lose her?

    Here is what I think, I have to let her out!! That side of me loves things, things she has always loved. Like going to the gym, decorating, being with her girl friends and making people laugh. I, just me, love to go on trips and lay on the beach. I, just me, love to stay up late, binging on shows and eating ALL THE SNACKS! So I do those things! I do them often and sometimes only in little ways. I go to the gym almost everyday. I plan trips with my girlfriends yearly and make people laugh everyday on snap chat;) jk jk! Haha. That is what I love about people like The Allison show, she created opportunities for us, through dance parties, to reconnect with ourselves. I promise if you all find even small ways to reconnect with yourself on a regular basis, you will find so much more balance in your lives!!! Is it easy to do? NO. Will you feel guilty at first when your kids cry as you walk out the gym door leaving them at the mercy of babysitters? YES. Is it even worth all that trouble? YES. You guys, we are worth it. We are worth remembering and taking care of. That is the thing about balance, if you don’t take care of all three “me’s” then they will all suffer. Taking care of just you, will make you a more patient and loving mama and it will definitely make you a more fun and happy wife! Try it and let me know how it goes! I believe in this SO MUCH! Call your girl friends and go out! Tell your husband I said so, he will thank me later and so will you! 😉

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    How to layer accessories


    Some of my first jobs out of design school were working at boutiques. I was in charge of keeping the shelves full of the pretties and making sure they were well designed. I learned so much about how to layer accessories and make them look pretty. It was a valuable design lesson and one I still use in my home, and with my clients today! Even if you love a minimal clean look the art of layering is still important.

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    I love accessories, or crap if you want to call it that! This is something that comes sort of organically to me like hanging a gallery wall, which I talk about HERE, if you want to read it. K so books are a great accessory to layer with. They can lay flat or vertical and give the ability to make smaller accessories seem taller. Also GREENERY, whether you find it at homegoods or IKEA, as long as it is green, I approve. It gives that earthy natural feel that any space needs! Last but not least some frames! You can put family pics or botanical prints in them,I ain’t picky, as long as you have them to use in your layering.

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    Like layering family members for a family pictures, always start with the tall stuff in the back and have it progressively get smaller towards the front. I typically like to use the rule of threes. Although this rule can certainly be broken when you have the perfect two things. When in doubt throw some pretty books in a basket with a frame and plant, and you have your self a vignette. Boom.

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    Last tip is to make sure to pay attention to the colors you use and have them balance each other through out the space or shelves you are designing. Now go for it! The worst thing that can happen is it looks like crap and you start over. Also as you find new treasures don’t be afraid to tweak your shelves and keep them constantly evolving. Good luck dream boats

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    Moving Tips

    Big Girl Room

    So if you don’t check my Instagram on the regular, you might have missed me talking about us moving soon! We are on the hunt for our next house and we are looking for a fun fixer upper! It has me thinking about packing and how much I LOVE MOVING! We have lived in the rental we are in for almost five years now, but before that we moved 5 times in one year! Yeah, I know we are crazy. I did however learn great tips and tricks for making the whole process easier. I also learned how to prioritize each room as I unpacked all of our pretties.

    First tip for moving actually starts right now, before you even decide to move. DECLUTTER!!! If you haven’t used, worn or played with something in the last six months, then get rid of it. Odds are you don’t need it if it has set there for that long. This will make moving so much easier, when the time comes. If it has been a while since you decluttered then do it before you start packing.

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    Next, keep everything as organized as possible and label ALL THE THINGS! Keep boxes specific to each room they are coming from and going too, with the exception of towels. Towels make great padding between dishes or picture frames. I know this isn’t rocket science and I am not reinventing the wheel or anything but when you get tired of packing, the desire to chuck everything in garbage bags and deal with it later gets pretty intense. Stay focused and stay organized, you won’t regret it when you get to your new place and everything makes sense.

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    Now my tips for making moving an easy transition for your kiddos. Like I mentioned before we moved 5 times in a year with a 3 year old, and I was so worried that she would feel so confused and chaotic. I decided to make it a point to move her room last and put it back together first. That way no matter where we were, California or Arizona, she felt safe and at home. I literally did this the very minute we moved in, before she even spent one night in our new house. I really think it made all that moving much easier on her.


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    Unpacking is my favorite part. All of the new possibilities and exciting design choices to be made! I am giddy just thinking about getting to do it again soon and in my very own house that I will own!!! Ahhh!! Ok I will calm down and wish you happy packing or at least a happy decluttering.

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    When I found out I was pregnant with my third baby, I was so nervous because my youngest at the time was only 6 months old. The only thing that calmed my fears was thinking that maybe the baby growing inside of me would be a little girl, because if it was a girl, that meant my oldest would have a sister. A SISTER.


    I have a sister and she is truly one of the greatest blessings in my life. My sister and I are 5 years apart. When we were growing up there were so many times where she drove me nuts. I was older and she followed me around idolizing me. She wanted to play with my friends and hang out in my room. I remember when I first got to shave my legs and she took a bath with me and watched with awe as I took my first step into womanhood. Haha Then there was the time when I was married and she was still young and tiny, and I spent all of my time walking around idolizing her. I begged her to let me hang out with her and made her let me borrow some of her clothes (which she hated). Those were not our best times but then something magical happens, one day you are both adults at the very same time. You are both married and you both have kids. You are pregnant together, although you are having your third and she is having her first. Still, you now have this even deeper level of connection because you are both going through the same things at the same time. You can cry together, eat together, run away from life together, and it is just the best. Then your babies grow up together and your bond gets even stronger.


    I wanted this as a mom and I got it. I get to watch my girls be sisters. I get to watch them fight and laugh and play. I will get to watch them learn from each other and grow up together. Someday I will get to watch them be in each other’s weddings and have babies together. They are so lucky to have each other and I know that first hand. Whether you are the older sister or the younger sister, or somewhere in the middle, there is so much to be learned from each other. I have been taught courage, faith, patience, loyalty and Christlike love from my little sister. At times I am convinced that she is far wiser and stronger then I will ever be. Hug your sisters today because they are truly the greatest blessing God gives to families.

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    8 ways to personalize your rental

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    Let me tell you my number one pet peeve, not decorating your rental because you don’t want to invest anything into it if you are only going to be there for a few years. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??? A few years or even a year is a long time to live in a place that doesn’t feel homey. I know I am biased, being an interior designer and all, but honestly I just don’t get it. Why wouldn’t you want to make even just your rental feel like home? There is nothing worse then feeling like you are a stranger in someone else’s house, so pretty please if you only take one piece of my advice let it be this one, decorate your rental for heavens sake!!!!! Here are the excuses I hear all the time from people I love who have rentals like me, I don’t know how long we will even be here. I don’t want to buy furniture for this house when we won’t live here forever. I don’t want to patch nail holes or paint back walls or put any of my own money into this place. I really do understand all of these concerns but I honestly believe that by investing even just a little money and time into the place you live, whether it be an apartment or rental house, will drastically improve your quality of life. K now I can jump down off of my soap box and calm down a little to give you my top 8 ways to personalize your rental.

    1.PAINT YOUR WALLS. Talk with your homeowner about color they approve but for the love do not live in poopy tan walls because you think you have to! Chose light grays or whites. You can even add stripes or walls with pops of color if you are willing to paint them back when you move. This will update your home and give a pretty back drop for all of your decor. When we moved into our rental the walls were a milk chocolate color and I changed them to my favorite gray “silver birch” from behr. I added stripes down my hall to add some character and I have not once regretted the $50 I spent on paint or the few hours I put into it.
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    2.ADD RUGS. My least favorite thing about rentals is that you have to live with whatever finishes were here before. Such as flooring, countertops and faucets. You can however put rugs down over the existing flooring to take attention away from something you might not love. Our kitchen has the worst laminate slate floors in terrible green/brown tones, so I threw this IKEA rug over it to add character and distract people from my hideous laminate. You can do the same with carpet. Add a stylish rug to distract from the tan or cream carpet that may exist in your rental. Good news is that spending money on rugs is not a waste because you can take them with you when you move!

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    3.CHANGE OUT LIGHT FIXTURES. This might be my favorite thing to do in my rentals. It just takes a little wiring and you can go from out dated rental fixtures to custom lights. I changed out those horrible bun lights for chandeliers in my halls and kitchen and swapped out an out dated chandelier for this thrift store one in my dining room! Trust me, especially if you or your husband is handy, this will make a dramatic difference in your home.


    4.HANG THINGS IN THE WALL. Odds are you are going to have to touch up paint and fill some holes when you leave any way, so don’t be afraid to hang family pictures or gallery walls in your rental. Cheap and like all of the other things, you can take your art with you when you go!



    5.CHANGE OUT BATHROOM MIRRORS. This one only works for powder bathrooms usually, but changing out a frameless, boring mirror for something more unique, is a great way to personalize your bathroom spaces.


    6.CHANGE OUT DOORS. It is absolutely my favorite thing in my whole house and the piece I get the most compliments on, my linen closet door. I swapped out a boring flat door for this door I found for $20 at an old building supply store. I painted it blue and hung in my linen closet. It adds SO MUCH character with out breaking the bank. I love it so so much.

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    7.BUY GOOD FURNITURE. Buying quality furniture pieces that reflect your personal style is the best way to make your rental feel like your own. You should have good cozy couches and fun pillows to add personal touches to your space. You need nightstands and side tables and lamps. They don’t have to be expensive. Shop thrift stores and budget friendly stores like Ross or homegoods but BUY THINGS. You can take them with you when you go or resell them. They are worth investing in and will make you feel like the adult you are trying to be!

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    8.PAINT CABINETS. This one might terrify you and I understand that, so if you have to pass this step, I will forgive you. If you are more adventurous then call your homeowner and ask about what cabinets you can paint? Sometimes they will even pay for supplies if you are willing to do the work. Changing those nasty orange bathroom or kitchen cabinets to a crisp white is LIFE CHANGING!


    The bottom line is LOVE where you LIVE. Invest a little of yourself in your rental and your quality of life with improve no matter what faze of life you are in!

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    my motherhood


    All week I have been contemplating what my post for Mother’s Day was going to be about. What words of wisdom or moments of reflection would I share with all of you? Then it kind of hit me, I don’t have any. Really though. I am so deep in the middle of my motherhood, that I can’t see the end from the beginning. Everywhere I turn there are babies crying, or toddlers screaming, or 7 year olds sassing me. The background music of my life is Mickey Mouse club house. Haha there is currently no time for reflection of any kind at all. I am in mommy survival mode. That mode where you metaphorically put your head down, (you can’t actually put your head down because somebody would get hurt or you would look up to your whole house would be destroyed) and keep pushing through. That sounds bad, like I don’t enjoy it or it is all terrible. That is quite the opposite of how I feel. I actually love it. I love the chaos and the endless amounts of love and kisses, but it is hard. Very hard. It is a grind, and I constantly have to remind myself to make sure and take enough mental pictures so I have them saved in my mind for when this beautiful, messy faze of life is over. This is it, this is motherhood. It is sleepless nights, worrying all the time, packing lunches, making bottles, picking up messes, kissing cheeks, changing diapers, drawing baths and driving carpools. It is not glamorous. It is messy. Then, Just when you think you definitely can’t do it anymore, one of those little humans you made look up at you with their big blue eyes and take your breath away. They are worth it. Of course they are. They need you. Something about that simple fact, and the knowledge that it won’t always be that way, keeps you going. It helps you be a little more present and a little more gentle when life feels overwhelming. Someday they won’t need you, at least not like this. Someday you won’t be covered in baby paraphernalia and smell like spit up. Someday you will wear real clothes and fix your hair. Someday you will sleep in again and someday you will miss this. You will really, really miss it. So although it is busy and crazy and stressful, it is the only place I would want to be. Right here on the floor, being climbed on by tiny humans, in the middle of my very own motherhood.